I hate FUxxKer!

YOU! Don't ever thought that you know me so well. I tell you, You don't even understand me! It's really hard for me to not showing my black shit face to you! 

You never keep your promise! You never ever try to listen to people! And Still you thought you are Fucking RIGHT! You are fucking mindful and thoughtful! Please! Keep Skin LAR! 

You Are Such An AssHole MAN!!!!

My piece of sharing........

Holla. Is in a blogging mood. Am at my another page of my life. My RAship gonna end so soon. Time really flies. A year ago, I am still wondering where to start and now its ending. Will pick up a temporarily jobs for two months. The pay is way lesser than the payment i am getting now, but i believe, i will get my so called "satisfy" payment/ job after that.HEHEHE... I am resetting my mindset now. Used to teach my boys and girls to think POSITIVELY, and I guess is time to apply the rule. Try to use these two months to clear up everything as well as charging myself up.
During the 1 year, I get to see a lot of people. And managed to get closer and try on some of the things in my workplace. My only boss teaches me, guides me a lot. Honestly, i really learned a lot from this beautiful women. I am glad to had the faith with her. I still remember clearly the way she impressed me, the moment i knew she was my supervisor, and the experiences she shared with me in the past. I knew, no one is perfect. I knew she is imperfect as well. But still, i can see her trying so hard to maintain what she had right now. Is not easy. And she is trying. Really wish to thanks her for teaching me everything. And i would like to apologize on everything that i had make a mistake in. Just wish to tell her "sometimes, sorry for being so introvert, I am not used to talk a lot , hang out and share a lot with people. So just forgive me for not going lunch with you because i am just too not use to it." Wish you all the best ! And good luck! Boss!

Time to sleep. GOOD NIGHT!

Simple and easy way to increase pocket money.

After such a long ignorance, I am back. Hahaha. Recently, i found out some of the website they actually pay when you click on their ads. I mean i know the present of these kind of websites but i didn't really look into it until today (because recently i am so eager to find money). XD This kind of Pay To Click (PTC) appears way long ago. It is totally free to sign up. No need to pay for registration fee and They pay you when you click on the ads they are advertising or fill  in survey or invite people to join. Trusted and Workable. Means that for sure they will pay. However, the speed of earning money is totally like "o gui" (turtle speed). Unless you got extra money to upgrade the membership then you will get rabbit speed. For me, i just take the free one, and i registered a few of these PTC sites. Although my earning is so little, is like $0.20 per day on each sites, and i need to click a lot of ads, i still feel that i am very enjoying. Lazy people tend to use lazy method like me to earn extra money. I admit it. =) *am i too positive?**Don't care*

It will be a long process to get the minimum payout, example like i need to use one month time to click and get paid for $2.00 from a website. But add up the 5 sites i registered, i will get $10. Convert to MYR, i will get RM30. Not bad. RM30 for viewing ads. Just spent part  of my usual time of playing fb to click ads. Haha..

Maybe this is a dumbest way to earn extra, but it still worth a try for those people like me surfing internet all the time. If you also feel like joining, below are some top PTC sites that i had joined. Thanks for viewing. Happy trying! XD

1) Nerdbux
2) AyuWage
3) ProBux
4) Hits4Pay
5) ClickFair
6) Rewarding Ways

特别想对你说的话

已经有好长一段时间没有写部落阁了。

心里的那团火突然又燃烧，唯有把这热情释放在这吧。。。。。。 

我回顾了以前为捣蛋鬼写下的点滴，显然的，我们真的变成熟了。

在一起久了，不再会像一开始时的缠绵，可是那份依赖却多得夸张。

很多时候，很多事情，都会依赖着对方。

完全就是那种就像赖着你的感觉！

捣蛋鬼，你觉得呢？

认真的放下所有东西，与我的捣蛋鬼去玩了五天。

这五天真的让我得到了超多的。

在这区区的几天，我们的相册增加了，

经验累积了，生活充实了，回忆增多了，眼界也开阔了。

还记得出发前一天，忙乱的收拾行李。

然后那个固执的捣蛋鬼，半夜就拉我出发了。

到达了第一站，就发生了生平最糗的事！！！！

我想他一定会拿来笑一辈子。。。@。@ 

一起去看过的东西，还记忆犹新！

一起玩的游戏还历历在目。特别是那海盗船和跳楼机。哈哈哈。。

从刺激转到平静，从冷天转到热天，

 这极端的转换，特别的不错，因为印象特深。平静的海边让我特别的安静。

看着你那大胆的探索，平静的我也特别的迟疑。

最喜欢你那张“龟波气功”图。

因为我把你拍到特别的神。哈哈哈。。。

海鲜也尝了，最遗憾的，就是没有吃到螃蟹。。。。。。我想吃螃蟹。。。。。

我知道你想逗留东禅寺久一点，可是我当时的情况真的逼不得已。

真的抱歉，我知道，我让你纳闷了。

我想，我们最难忘的一个部分应该是回家时，

一起回顾那间酒店的东西吧。。。。。。。。哈哈哈哈。。。

老实说，我喜欢和你一起去开拓新的视野。

我喜欢和你一同去品尝各地的美食。

我喜欢与你一同去体验各种刺激的东西。

对，我们时常吵架，时常不满意对方，

可是我真的想告诉你，

有你真好！我想一辈子依赖着你。

好吗？

**你今天上演的追巴士记，让我感动极了。T.T

。心情记录。

我讨厌没次被诬赖的感觉！

就一句话，“你真的非去不可吗？” 我就被判了死刑。

所有矛头都直向我。然后变成了我是害人精。 

没有人愿意出来帮我辩护，自己替自己说话时也变成了是借口。

然后选择了放弃为自己辩驳。

头脑一直被那些指责徘徊着，开心暂时休息着，心灵暂时悲痛着。

我，选择了不说话，并不意味着我没替自己说过什么。

只是，

我说话，没人愿意听，

听了就把它当成是借口。

有时觉得自己好像和空气说着话。

这一切，都让我好累。 

累得不想再多说一句话。

我记得，曾经何时我告诉过我一位好朋友，

人家要误会就让他吧，我不会多说，让他们自己知道。 

可惜的是，我现在没有了那份潇洒。

我讨厌没有人愿意听我说，

我讨厌连唯一会相信我的人也选择了对方，

我讨厌被孤立，

我讨厌我的愚蠢，

简单来说，

我讨厌我自己！我是害人精！！！！

EMO.....

.............................................I want a vacation!!!!..............................................

Was chatting with my boy while having our dinner that day and we went into the topic of our next vacation. He told me that he want to go oversea so badly and actually i have the same feeling too and might be even worst than he do. And we had agreed to set Hong Kong as our destination in the coming vacation. The simple conversation raised my urges to the max. and it makes me keep on thinking on it these few days. Eventually, i google a lot of things about Hong Kong. The foods, the places, the air tickets, the hotels even search on the transportation and map. My feeling up to this point is like "wuhoo, i am going to Hong Kong tomorrow.!!"BUT, everything is still under the consideration status. Nothing was confirm aside from the vacation thought!  I know, is easy to say "i wanna go vacation.. i wanna go Hong Kong!!" But when reality comes in, everything change. I am kinda contradict now. Very excited if i really got the chance to go, but at the same time, kinda sad because i can't afford the fees so far. Well, the only thing i can do now is shut the shit up until everything confirm.  EMO.... =[ NIte... 

Old lady in the house

Dear all, it has been a long long time i didn't update any post in this little world. Previously, this is the place where i can share my every single feeling here, and it still work for me now. Went through an incident today, just hope to express my feelings here. 

Feeling of the day : indescribably 

Every single incident start with a person and the person of the day --> dear old pretty lady.

Dear old pretty lady is a strong and harsh women. She had 4 sons and 2 daughters. One of her son passed away last year.The old lady was still strong enough to handle the hard time.  She might/might not spent her half life in fighting and arguing with her family members. Due to her bad temper and jealousy,  she can't live well with every single family members. She still live happily with her sons theoretically, but her sons practically dumped her to one of her daughter to take care her. The old lady just dislike the feeling of living with daughter as she is a very typical Chinese that live with a thought of living with daughter is damn freaking shame thing. Her daughter owned her own family, having 3 children and the youngest kid just graduate from her tertiary study. The old lady got dumped to the house for years. Previously, her sons will bring her home overnight when any festival days. But these two years onward, no one willing to see her even on Chinese New Year. She waits for the arrival of her sons every single moment, the hopeless in her eyes appeared every single day. The old lady felt down and hurt her head two days ago. Aside from that, the old lady also hurt her leg as well. The daughter and the daughter's son worried until can't even have enough rest. And she is now discharge and resting in her daughter's house. 

Old people felt down might be very severe. Wounds might be hard to heal and might be painful for a longer period, but the reaction of the people around the old lady is even more painful and unbelievable.  Out of her kids, only the daughter who taken care her willing to bring her home and only one of her sons willing to pay the operation and medical fees. Can you all imagine that? She is having 6 kids, exclude the one that already leave, only 2 out of 5 willing to do her somethings.The other kids just call and asked on her situation. When get to know that she is OKAY, then no more calls form them. She cant walk and even stand now. The daughter's house has no ground floor room for her to stay and now she need to sleep at the living room.  I seriously cannot take this and really feel very sad and angry when i see this situation. A 80++ years old women need to sleep at the living room when she is physically disable. Those sons and daughter house are damn big and sufficient enough to let her get some rest. Their finance is even far more better than the two .BUT NONE OF THEM WILLING TO DO SO!!!! HEY !!! SHE IS YOUR MOM!!!! WHY YOU ALL CAN DO THIS TO HER?? THE PAST IS THE PAST!!!!!!!!! CANT YOU ALL JUST PUT IT DOWN A WHILE AND GIVE HER A BETTER HEALTH CARE FIRST FOR GOD SAKE????? SHE IS REALLY WEAK !!!!!!! IZZIT REALLY WANT TO WAIT TILL THE DAY THE OLD LADY DIE, YOU ALL ONLY WANT TO DO SOMETHING??????????HEY PLEASE LA!!!!!!!! 

If you all dare to blame on the daughter, then for sure you all will get the karma. If you all want respect, please respect your self first. I can't see any responsibility from you all! My Gosh!