Thursday, September 20, 2012

。心情记录。


我讨厌没次被诬赖的感觉!
就一句话,“你真的非去不可吗?” 我就被判了死刑。
所有矛头都直向我。然后变成了我是害人精。 
没有人愿意出来帮我辩护,自己替自己说话时也变成了是借口。
然后选择了放弃为自己辩驳。
头脑一直被那些指责徘徊着,开心暂时休息着,心灵暂时悲痛着。
我,选择了不说话,并不意味着我没替自己说过什么。
只是,
我说话,没人愿意听,
听了就把它当成是借口。
有时觉得自己好像和空气说着话。
这一切,都让我好累。 
累得不想再多说一句话。
我记得,曾经何时我告诉过我一位好朋友,
人家要误会就让他吧,我不会多说,让他们自己知道。 
可惜的是,我现在没有了那份潇洒。
我讨厌没有人愿意听我说,
我讨厌连唯一会相信我的人也选择了对方,
我讨厌被孤立,
我讨厌我的愚蠢,
简单来说,
我讨厌我自己!我是害人精!!!!

Saturday, September 15, 2012

EMO.....

.............................................I want a vacation!!!!..............................................

Was chatting with my boy while having our dinner that day and we went into the topic of our next vacation. He told me that he want to go oversea so badly and actually i have the same feeling too and might be even worst than he do. And we had agreed to set Hong Kong as our destination in the coming vacation. The simple conversation raised my urges to the max. and it makes me keep on thinking on it these few days. Eventually, i google a lot of things about Hong Kong. The foods, the places, the air tickets, the hotels even search on the transportation and map. My feeling up to this point is like "wuhoo, i am going to Hong Kong tomorrow.!!"BUT, everything is still under the consideration status. Nothing was confirm aside from the vacation thought!  I know, is easy to say "i wanna go vacation.. i wanna go Hong Kong!!" But when reality comes in, everything change. I am kinda contradict now. Very excited if i really got the chance to go, but at the same time, kinda sad because i can't afford the fees so far. Well, the only thing i can do now is shut the shit up until everything confirm.  EMO.... =[ NIte...