童心

这几天，我都会呆在家里，因为现在是study week。我的朋友们，甚至不认识的同校同学们，每个人都拼了命的 K 书，只有我，懒得要命，多几天就要考试了，还乐悠悠的，有种“天塌下来当被盖”的感觉。真是要不得，要不得啊！

我只是顾着玩电脑罢了~唉~

虽然一天二十四小时都呆在家，可是小妹我却完全不会觉得很无聊，因为有家人的陪伴，还有那位小姑娘的笑脸和她那单纯美丽的心。如果有看我的部落格的，不知道大家是否还记得我的侄女呢？对了，就是她。

她，我的侄女！

她的存在让我不会寂寞，也让我觉得， 如果能够当回小孩，那该多好。 年纪小小小的她，脸上的笑容总是能溶化我们家里每个人的心。爱说话的她，逗得我们乐呼呼的。就是正正因为她还咬字不清，每次她说“要”，“不给”， “OK” ，“apple"  , "ball"  , "cat" , "dog"  等等的字时，都让我们笑不合嘴啊 。她，每天都很开心。在她的世界里，开心就笑，不喜欢就不要，肚子饿饿了就叫，大便臭臭了，也不用担心被人笑， 很单纯。看她玩着她的玩具开心的模样，真是让人觉得， 小孩子真的很可爱!  不过，当她赌气或发脾气是，是很可怕的！哈哈~ 以下有些她的玩具，慢慢欣赏啊！

masak-masak 又称为家家酒~来~ummmm

她的三只bearbear~

小小手推车！熊熊啊，你要去哪里？

她的最爱，小球球！

她，有个很不好的习惯，我想，应该每个小孩都会有的，就是当不要玩的玩具时，就会随手就丢。昨天，我遭殃了！躺在沙发看着电视的我，就无辜的被她当时不要玩了的玩具画板丢个正着。丢到了下巴，还流了点血。 她啊~~~~ 真是气死我了。原本想说生气了，和她赌赌气，那枕头把脸盖着不要和她玩的，可是她的反应却让我再也气不下去了。她看我不理她，就很着急的一边拍我，一边乱乱喊我了。 看着她那着急的脸，你叫我怎么忍心生气她呀。

这个就是凶器啦~大人啊！饶命啊！

她，有着一个比任何人都纯的心。无论什么事，对她而言，不开心就哭，开心就笑，不用顾虑太多。这就是童心了。有时候我在想，她的头脑到底在想什么呢？ 看着她的睡脸，很想知道她有做梦吗？ 好想好想知道，可是，哈哈哈。。。有点很难啊！现在我什么都不想，只想她和家人们能永远平安快乐！我爱你们！ 以下有些我和她的照片，谢谢观赏！晚安！

Xin: 这个是什么？我怎么会在里面？

Min: 来，笑一个嘛~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Xin：我也要拍！

我们会像吗？

哈哈哈~ 谢谢观赏！

Duhhh...

Friday is always the best day for me. I love Friday a lot. But today is quite a tired day for me. Went back to hometown in the morning and straight went to the bank after my mum get me at bus stand. My mum go get her things done and i am the one who are responsible to take care of my niece. That naughty girl today really full of energy. Keep kacau me for the whole evening. Last night i slept for around 6 hours and after the bus journey, i am really very sleepy. Thought of getting a nap after reached home, but that baby girl are so manja today and causes me did not manage to get a nap and need to play with her for the whole evening. She is really super active. OMG. The journey today is not that smooth. The bus i sat broke down half way and we ( the passengers) need to change bus. The other bus bus driver really make me pissed off. While we walk from the first bus to the second bus, the bus driver drove the bus away, and stop. Once we enter the bus, he keep scolding us, said we walk so slow, like going to die like that. Hey, don't he see that we are all carrying our bags and the bags are really heavy! Haiz. Forget about it. No big deal. Haha. Just now one of my best friend message me and asking for dinner. Hey buddy, i am at Ipoh lar. XD Miss them so much !! Want to know who are they? Haha.. 

Tahhh -- Dannnngggg!!! 

(1)

This is Des dear dear!

(2)

Darling Yee ~~~ ^^

(3)

He is the pet! J~

(4)

Papa and Xiao Jie! ^^

Actually got a few more, but i din't have thier photo! So... Sorry guys --> okzai, weei and ck.. Haha.. Thats all for today , good night!

Journey~

Yesterday, went back to Ipoh all the way from Kampar by my own. The journey was not bad and i reached safety here. *weee* Woke up quite late yesterday and walk all the way from my hostel to bus stop and that small journey took me 15 minutes plus. Its was a sunny day, the sun are bright and hot. However, i enjoyed a lot. Sometimes, walking alone can be very comfortable and peace. I like to be alone sometimes because i love to enjoy the loneliness and peaceful moment. Reached bus stop around 12 noon and very unlucky, it was lunch hour. No bus work at that moment. I waited for one and a half hour and finally i managed to get a bus at 1.35pm. So Happy! Although the whole journey was walk all by myself, it doesn't mean that i am alone. When i am on my way to the bus stop, there are a lot of people around me, they are going to the same area also,the difference it just the way we go. Some of them go by car, some of them by motor and i go there by walking. I am not alone! When waiting at the bus stop, i am not alone! The other people are also waiting for the same bus with me. When i am in the bus, I am not alone. Because some of them are going to the same destination like me. It is just like our life. We need to walk the journey of life all by ourself, but actually we are not alone. It seems like we are having no one, but all of them are around us doing the same thing, with different way only. Journey, might be long and tough to complete, but for me, i will not give up because i know you all will accompany me to finish it. Hehe...Guys and girls, still have long way to go. Remember, you are not alone, i'll will be with you~! Go, Go, Go!

Here are some of the photo i took yesterday. Mostly are me. XD  Thanks for viewing. Enjoy!

While waiting bus~ ^^

     

Min's journey~~~

The wind was strong when in the bus!! Arghhh!!

Playing with my phone camera effects. Here comes bright+++++ !

This is the Black & White

The cooling effects!

alright alright~ Back to normal ! haha..

救命啊！！

小妹轻松的拽样 >.<

最近生活都很轻松，可是轻松得让我觉得很可怕！

因为太有空了，和朋友相聚的时间也多了。

看起来没有什么问题啊，可是这才是问题的起因啊。

我，因为自小被家人宠坏了，有时说话真的不分轻重，惹怒了很多人。

这，也是我喊救命的原因！

轻松自在的生活，时常把我们聚在一起用餐，玩乐。

往往我就是最爱闹那个，

时常去作弄身边那两个大男生，

总是爱在他们身上找东西来酸他们，作弄他们！

对，这个就是我对待我很要好的男性朋友的方式，

因为我都把他们当成哥哥来看待。

对我而言，去酸他们，是很好玩的东西，

可是，

我却忘了，牵涉到的人的感受！

我一厢情愿的认为所有人都知道我在开玩笑，

可是,

我却忘了，

如果我开的玩笑不是玩笑，

事情会变得很糟糕！

昨天，对，正正是昨天，

我们约了一起吃晚餐，

我，也不由自主的酸起他来了，

看着他被我酸的表情真是很好玩，

还真想再酸他几回。

可是，我的玩笑好像惹了个麻烦出来了。

因为我的玩笑好像不是玩笑耶！

无意中，我好像把火头给点燃了。

唉。。救命啊！！

我又玩出火了。不懂我应该怎么办了 。

现在我只担心火势越烧越大，那我就后悔一辈子了。

很想很想亲口对你们说声对不起，可是我又没有那个勇气。

牵涉到的朋友们，真的对不起！

我真的无意的，我也不懂事情会是这样的，

希望你们会没事， 我愿意承担所有的过错！对不起！ 

小妹在此愿老天爷救救命，能下一场大雨，

把火给扑灭，大家依然能安然无恙，

开开心心的一起度过每一天！

感恩~ 

Home~ sweet home!!!

Today is Friday and this is basically a stupid sentences. Haha. Finally, i am at my home now after one week in Kampar. haha. Reach Hometown around 4.15pm and meet up with my mama at Mc. Donalds. When my dear Des and I are on the way back to Ipoh, we chat a lot of funny things inside the car. Haha.  Saw my mum's car when i reached and I was so happy at that moment because i can be with my mama baba and my family members in the coming weekend. Yuhoo..!! Wake near the car, and saw a babysit inside the car,and i am very sure that my cute niece is with my mama. She is just so adorable! I was melted by her very very innocent smile and my mama's smile too.

Here comes the cutie. 

This small little girl is 1+years old. Still cannot speak word properly but she likes to talk. When she saw me , she immediately give me a very warm and excited smiley face . I was like, awww, so warm. She keep on calling me when i am getting in to the car and wanted me to hug her by lifting her hand up to the sky. XD Brings her down to McD and brought my mum a burger for her lunch and a cup of ice-cream for myself. Yummy! Reach home around 4.45pm and play with my niece for half an hour. After that my mama wants her go for a nap and she just ignored my mama by keep playing her toys. My mama was like wanted to angry but cannot because she always makes people laugh in the next minutes. Haha.. Baba comes home around 6pm and i shocked him. He is so surprise that seeing me at home and again, this man smile melted my heart.
Mama and Baba are now attending dinner and left my bro, dai sou and me in the house. Our dinner tonight was only Maggi Mee. However, this bowl of mee already enough for me to warm my heart.

Although my family is not a rich family, i am happy with it because it brings us rely on each others. Although we are not living in banglo, we feel warm in this smaller house. Although we are not capable to have a higher standard of lifestyle, at least we are capable to love each other without calculating anything which many others family cannot achieve in this. Seeing everyone in the house smile happily is the most lovely thing for me. No matter what problems we are facing outside, it will become no problem when the moment we are in home.  Baba, Mama, gor gor , dai sou and baby girl i love you all! I am so grateful that god gave me such a warm family to be with. Thank God!

Straight hair.

Wake up early in the morning, don't know what to do and started to missing my mama. She is so lovely, caring and cute no matter what she do. Even though i did some small little things, she will be very panic. Haha.. I cut my hair when i accompany my gang of very best friend to Ipoh in a day in March and this is it.

I feel that it is not bad and quiet happy with it. Went home happily last friday but my mum shocked when she saw me. She ask me what did i do to my hair and why is it my hair look like the grasses beside the road. Actually i feel quite strange when my mum said that. What i thought was my hair look very nice but my mum say it is bad. She started to mumbling and say want to bring me to saloon the next day to "rescue" my hair. I was thinking like "what?! is it that terrible and need to "rescue" it? OMG! ". went to saloon the next day and the stylist check my hair. After checking, she give me two choices, whether cut it or straighten it. My mum did not say anything at that time and at last i decided to straighten my hair. Decision making done and it turns to action taking. Haha.. Sat there for few hours and finally my hair done. The mission of " rescuing " complete and turn on to the process of paying money. It costs me RM100 but my mum pay for me. Mummy, Thank you, I love You. My mum also brought me  a set of Shampoo+conditioner so that i can take care of my hair. Really a caring mama. *hugs*  She was so satisfy with my straighten hair and she also order me not to cut my hair again without her permission. What a lovely mum. ^^  love her so much! And here is the result. 

Seems like not much different but it changed a lot in my mum opinion. Love to see her smile and listen to her laughter. May she be free from any anger and anxious, live happily and healthy always. She is always my superwomen!

老天爷，您看见了吗？

这个问题，我永远都无法找到答案。。心情超差的。扫墓原本是一个很有意义的节日，可是，今天，我发现了，它，只不过是一拿来表现的一个节日。清明节原本是拿来纪念已故的祖先们，可是为什么我看到的这一幕，会是如此的可悲。

今天一大早，带着愉快的心情，陪着妈妈去拜祭我的外公。到达了，心情更是愉快，因为看到了大部分的亲戚都来了。心想啊，这份孝心真难得。 看着大人们对着爸爸的思念，心理更是感动。舅舅从裤袋里拿出了纸巾，轻轻地在外公的照片上抹着，那双依依不舍的眼睛，完全感动了所有的人啊。。陌生人看了都会说“这家人啊，还真孝顺哦！”

在场的，除了有子子孙孙外，还有一位外公生前最疼爱的女人，她就是我的外婆。外婆的眼神放满了思念，眼眶布满了眼泪，为了不让身边的人看见她的软弱，她，强忍着泪水，静静的坐着，等着。

她，原本也是一个可爱的女人。自从老伴离开后，脸上的笑容，也随着离开了。也许你们会说：“怎么可能呢，她还有一堆孝顺的孩子能照顾她呀。 ”可惜啊，孝顺是能装出来的。不说以前，只是今天，她的孩子们又多孝顺，一天就能知道。 拜祭晚了，大家一起去吃早餐。 原本想说，她的儿子们随便都会有一个会带她回家过夜，结果， 我又再一次看到了她那双失望的眼神。 一个老人，一心想着她的乖儿子们会好好保护着她，爱着她，让她能有着安详的晚年，可是啊，这一幕，从未上演过。她每天盼着她最疼爱的儿子会带她去他的家过夜，可是这个儿子都很忙，忙到连妈妈都给忘记了。 可怜的她，只能一再为儿子找借口，让他能一直背着孝子这个名字。 

今天，这个老妈妈依然盼望着她的孝子能带她到他家过多一夜，可是啊，中午才过，妈妈已经被送回老家了。 一个人在老家，过于担心的她，忙着打电话给子女们，没有一个愿意接电话。 我妈也无奈了。 把婆婆接到了我家，我只看到她惶惶张张的，忙着收拾她的行李，边收边念她打电话给儿子们都没人接。看着一盒冷了的饭，才知道，原来啊，她还没有吃午餐。 我在想，有必要那么急着送她回老家吗？她连饭都没机会一起吃耶。

从一个被爱的女人，到被抛弃的女人， 你们到底有没有想过她的心有多痛？她不是外人，也不是陌生人，她是你们的妈耶！身为她的孙女，我已经很惭愧没有尽力去疼爱她了，难道你们连一点羞耻心都没有了吗？她只想和你们一起度过她的日子，我相信你们老了也会要儿子们陪着你们吧！今天早上我是有那一杀那的感动，可是后来，我只觉得你们的一举一动，都只是做给人家看的表面功夫！一个活生生的妈妈站在你们面前，你们不孝顺， 反而对死去的人那么的不舍得， 我只觉得你们很假！不要再说我们是小孩子，不会懂的啦，我们是有思想的！我只觉得你们是最不懂那几个！我只能说，你们现在怎样对你的父母，以后你们的孩子就会怎样对你们！你们自己看着办吧！！！！老天爷，您有看见吗？？人们已经不把清明节拿来纪念祖先了，因为他们要这个日子来做戏给人家看！！我相信除了我家，外面还有无数个老人家面对着如此的情景，我只能衷心的祝福你们，希望你们的孩子的觉悟，让你们有着快乐的生活。

我很在意

我很在意，你们怎样想我。

我很在意，你们怎样说我。

因为相信，我把心底的话都说出来了，

可是，万万也想不到，原来你们会有着这样的想法。

虽然你们没有说，可是我知道，大家中间发生了一些些的事。

我是放不下我的过去，我也承认过我不会付出全心去交朋友，可是那并不代表什么。

或许，对你们来说，我很假。

或许，你们会觉得我在欺骗着你们。

或许，我已经不在是你们的好朋友。

很想说， 如果我真的不成把你们当真心朋友，我也不会那么安心的在你们面前流泪。

很想说，如果我不在意你们，我不会告诉你们我的过去。

很想说，当我说我没有用全心去交朋友时，我已经把我的心都给放完下去了。

那天，我是真的生气了。

昨天，我是真的想通了。

今天，我是真的心痛了。

姐妹们，我明白我的话令你们不开心了，可是我只想告诉你们，我就是因为相信你们，觉得你们会明白我，我才告诉你们那番话。我也很想说，这几天我并不好过，因为，我真的很在意你们的每一句话，你们的一举一动。如果回不了过去，我会静静的呆在你们身傍。因为，至少我能和你们在一起。姐妹们，对不起，谢谢！